Oh my baby, as you go off to school, I realize how much you’ve grown up.
I’m not sure when or how, but you and your brother have gone from little toddlers pitter-pattering across the floor, reaching up for your sippy cup of milk and trying to tell me in your little baby babble what you need to little people who have your opinions and let them be known.
I’ve spent the last summer trying to keep you occupied and taking you to see places and people. I’ve watched you learn how to ride your bike and get excited with you as four new teeth started to wiggle all within a week. I’ve watched you be kind to your little brother and teach him how to brush his teeth on his own and how to swim in the pool. You’ve helped me with chores, sometimes unwillingly, but you finally are beginning to understand that in life we must do something in order to go somewhere.
I look at your sweet face and it can bring me to tears because you look at me for advice and reassurance. I cringe at the knowledge that one day you won’t want to listen to me, only because you have my fierce personality and are head-strong like me. My heart can hurt as your sweet innocence slowly gets stripped as you see and hear things on the TV about our world. You ask me questions about the state of the world and you judge people on their ethics and morals without even realizing it.
You are starting to form your beliefs on what is right and what is wrong and that’s grown-up stuff.
You will go to school soon and, again, I will have to get used to you being gone most of the day. Your teachers will get to teach you things I never will and get experiences with you I won’t. I understand this is the way of the world and in order for you to become a well-rounded person you need to learn and watch from other people in addition to me and your father. I would be lying if I said I was 100% okay with it, but I do hope that you know I will always be there for you. I will always want to know your opinion, and I want you to share everything with me. I want you know I am here for you when you’ve had a hard day or when you’re ready for an adventure. As time slips away and you become older, I treasure our moments more and more. I wish I could bottle you up and keep you like you are, but that would be a disservice to the world because they wouldn’t be able to see your light and all you bring to the table.
I wish you well this school year and learn lots my little one.